Of Fantasies and Desires
Today’s discussion topic: Do you have Dominant desires or fantasies that you have yet to explore? Do some of your desires confuse or frighten you? Do they excite you?
So you want to know how deviant I am? You want to know what dark desires lurk within the depths of my depraved mind? You want to gets me going? I guess we return to the Rabbit Hole then, don’t we? Yes, yes, I’ve shown you a part of the depths before, but we haven’t plumbed the full depths of it have we? You’ve seen one room on the way to my own private Wonderland. Come along, this way. There’s still so much more to show you.
I have managed over the years to complete several of my fantasies with the various women in my life. From the schoolgirl classic to a slave girl fetish, I’ve explored almost every desire I’ve ever lusted after. More than a few I’d love to explore again. As to what’s left to explore? I have few. Rigging and corset training is something that has always more than piqued my interest. One of my all time favorites that I love to return to is the naughty schoolgirl. I don’t think I’ll ever be bored of that one. Thank you Sarah Michelle Gellar and Fairuza Balk for the early 90s sexual awakening.
I’ve also developed a few fetishes over the years. The biggest one that drives me absolutely crazy is watching my girl put on her lipstick. We could just be going out, right? Like nothing fancy, but she’s doing her makeup routine. If I chance upon her doing her lipstick, I will stop and appreciate the view. I don’t know what started this particular fetish, but it’s grown very intense over time. It honestly riles me up more than your everyday nudes.
When I first started out in the lifestyle, I was confused by my desires. I was conflicted with how a man was supposed to love and care for a woman and want to use a paddle or cane on her at the same time. Combined with my religious upbringing, I felt alone, rejected and confused. It wasn’t until I was 22 that I was fully able to express my desires and start the journey that would allow me to be comfortable with my true self. The journey I made to who I am today took several long years, as I suspect it was with most of us. It wasn’t always easy. For every bit of joy and thrill, there was heartbreak and despair. Several hard, and sometimes funny, life lessons have been learned along the way, all of them shaping me into the man I am today. Looking back upon that twisting, sometimes perilous road, I can honestly say I can smile. I’ve overcome so much and I’m even starting to recognize what others see in me.
It’s important to have a partner that’s willing to explore your fantasies. Leaving latent desires and lusts unfulfilled can create resentment and disappointment if it is a deep lust or need. Communicate your needs with your partner. Build faith in one another. Explore each other’s fantasies. Explore your own paths to Wonderland.