The Wolf Within
Today’s discussion questions: Is your need to be Dominant being met? If not, or if your situation changed, do you think that you could continue in your life and be happy and content without being able to express your Dominance in the way that feels best to you? What makes being a Dominant special to you?
As of right now, my needs are not being fully met, and that’s okay. Bunny and I are LDR and we do what we can for the time being. Whether or not I have a submissive does not change my core values or my true self. I almost didn’t return to the lifestyle after my last relationship. She was a narcist and manipulator and claimed to be something she wasn’t. She almost completely destroyed me. It is from those ashes that I’ve rebuilt myself. Not the same man I was before, but better, reforged, evolved even, into something new entirely.
I found myself again in these essays and editorials and I am not willing to let my true self fade back into nonexistence. I am beyond happy in refinding myself and even an ex made a comment on how she saw a return to my old self. It’s like watching the world pass you by in black and white. Then slowly, like a film noir flick, color begins seeping into being. Before you know it, the whole world is awash in 4k HD color. I can’t go back to black and white. I refuse to.
Being Dominant is enabling. It gives me the tools and mindset to tackle anything life throws at me. I am an emotional being and I didn’t use to always be so. Finding and rekindling my Dominance has given me the ability to master myself and in so doing, master my surroundings and day to day life. I know my identity no matter what life throws at me, I know how I should respond and usually do it without even thinking about it. I take care of my business. I organize chaos. It’s a great comfort when mentally lost or when confronting something new giving myself over to the Wolf within and following that natural lead. For the second time in my life, I’m looking in the mirror and am liking the man who is staring back at me. I am the Wolf.
This series has helped heal a broken mind. It helped me pick up the scattered pieces. It enabled me to make new and dear friends. I hope that it helped you, in some way, as it helped me.