One of the hardest things is saying goodbye. There is never a right time it seems. It always hurts. Sometimes though, you have to do it for your own well-being.
I’ve sat at this blank screen for what seems like forever. Trying to formulate thoughts, never mind coherent sentences. There is a lot of hurt and confusion. In the end, it’s just a jumbled mess, isn’t it? You try to analyze, breakdown, tear apart and find the root reasons for things, but sometimes, you can’t find one. Undoubtedly, in time, I will figure out some lessons and walk away with with those lessons in heart, but today, friends… today is not that day. Today is a day of comfort foods. Fried chicken and carrot cake is what the doctor has ordered. Fuck me, if that Southern upbringing doesn’t come through.
In the mean time, it’s time to practice what I preach. Self-betterment and all that. Since getting to the gym is hard right now, I have ordered the start of a home gym and even though it’s cold I will keep up my exercise routine and continue to walk as much as possible. I’ve got a lot of reading to do too and definitely will be working more on that in the coming future.
I am tired. There isn’t time to rest though. The work day has started and I need to get to it. Time to put the coffee on.